“You write because you go out and look for something and don’t find it. Somebody has to write it. Why not you?” - Kameron Hurley
I found those lines earlier this week and pasted them into a text editor with the intention of blogging about them, but I didn’t have anything more to say than ‘QFT!’, so I held off. (But QFT!)
I’m pushing to get TOO DEAD wrapped up by the end of the month. Half of me says “totally doable!” and the other half says “what planet are you living on?!” My characters are heading through the door that’ll take them to the final conflict. Eet ees coming!
I made good progress today, then had a lie down for a few minutes (even though I have a Beth Massie book I really want to get into; my eyes were too tired to tackle the small print¹). While I was lying down I thought to myself—not for the first time—“this book is so unsalable.” And I thought what a shame it was, because I love the setup, the characters, their relationships and the ending. The middle, admittedly, has a lot of muddle in it. And the relationships…it’s not like anyone else (except Reesa) would find them attractive. Everyone’s dead, and not in that cool vampire or The Crow way.
These are not the kind of guys who could make you swoon…unless you have a weak stomach.
After a few minutes I was up and jotting down notes about the changes that’ll have to be made when I get to work on the second draft of this thing later this year—changes to tighten up the story and straighten out the muddled middle. And I think I’m going to have to cut one relationship out entirely. It’s not the end of the world—I got to enjoy the relationship in the first draft, the other relationships will be more poignant² for it, and readers will roll their eyes less—but it’s sad-making to admit it has to go.
…so it’s like what Kameron Hurley was saying. I’m writing it because I want to read it, and nobody else is writing it…so it’s gotta be me.
And I do love this story.
(It’s way too early in the game to decide this thing isn’t marketable anyway.)
¹ Is there a crazy high pollen count this weekend? In addition to the burny eyes, my stupid dry allergy cough has been irritating me since yesterday.
² Zombies can too be poignant!!!